Best investment of life

 To get a job, I have to get a get degree, published a paper, and get my analytical skills up. I have to read case stories. Sometimes I get chilled, what if I unable to get a job or, lives a normal life. I have searched for the purpose of my life. And I got it, I have never seen a such charismatic dream.  I want to give access to a free home, free education, free medical expenses, free food.  I think it should be made available, and some corporation are provide such things. but it should be available to all, some of human are left to wonder the meaning of life. from childhood, I dreamy person, I like to wonder things, sitting a comfy place. I also run on the same race, I don't want be horse like all who race for the win. i just want to be 

 its been 5 days, since I started writing my blog. I have to master in content marketing thing its a good choice to start.

 I think days are flying away and I have to grab them and make something about it. The condition of my home is not good. they have to struggle a bit for me, I guess  I have to work harder, this blog is not helping as expected. maybe the reason is I expect too much and act only little on it.  I made a pack of studying out of the course and I'm not started yet. my batchmates are getting placed, I'm not even close to getting into any company. I have to start now, I have to work 3 hours separately. I also have to do a project, which is going to a hard day by day. I couldn't pass a single aptitude test. how can I change the world? I have seen the world, if you don't use them, you have to suffer and if you are useful then you get used all. one thing is clear, the smart one controls or will control the world, eventually.  and I'm fine with it, we as humanity thrive to this strange world and explore the unexplored. the more I grew old, the better understand the meaning of b

 Today is a good day. and yeah, I have to prepare for the bad one. I'm ready for it, I guess. Asking for help, its the first step in changing your life.   I will make not to myself to never ever shy to ask help. dreams come true eventually, not by you maybe but they did. we live in a vast universe and have access to very little.  

 I have so many ideas about start-ups. In entrepreneurship class, I learned if there is a problem, there has to something close to a solution. I learned that we leave in somewhat fancy delusion, and have to wake the entire word. I had bombarded with cosmological, mythological, psychological ideas, and discovery, I urged to find the answer or meaning of this life. yeah, I procrastinate, I think the right time will come and it will change me. means I'm still dreaming. I love cosmos ideas. I like to try giving everyone essential to help to live their life peacefully. and yeah, I think that the world is overpopulated and some of is getting far from they need or want in any way. it's very obvious coming this from a lower class student. I'm not good at education, I think I will be great at practical things like a job. I had done an intern in marketing and operation, I need anything that can give me 50k a month in next 5 years. I want to change my parent's lifestyle. yeah, I h

 who thought life would be so hard, or I  have imagined it simple. that I can't handle it. I have dreamed of so many things. but I dare to act on them. I have to support my family, I have to act on them slowly, strongly, consistently.  

 I have an online class today, I'm attending it with writing this thing. or whatever you say this is, that I have started.  I'm in a bad phase of my life, my parents are unable to burden my weight and I'm 22 years old and should have done something and bring some money in the home. but instead, I blew their savings on my laptop. and done nothing yet. I started this thing to cool down my thoughts and think about the possible ways to counter this effect.

  I have been watching "The Office" and I'm hooked. I know,, have some deadlines and my college is starting. And I have to study hard. because I have to, my parents got me a new Laptop. its big deal which costs 50 grand and my parent's salary adding together is 20 grand.  so I have a plan or you could say ambition to have a degree and then job and then study psychology and help people slowly. The world is miraculously strange and people strangely ignored and live up to the expectations of society and made-up world. birth and death are just things that tangled into each other. if the birth of the universe (which we are currently live) by big bang which proposed by scientists, then should have end. I stop to care about death, when it hit me. we humans are diluted in their delusions and if you don't care about it. people called you worse than just "idiot".